Today's funds: 7500 U, 2024.5.12

Today is Mother's Day. I really want to call my mother, but I don't dare to. The Chinese way of expressing love is still very introverted and shy. Sometimes the feelings are just in a look. Unfortunately, my mother may think that I am an unfilial son. She should think that I have forgotten her. It's a pity that I am not doing well. If I have a car, I can drive back to have a meal with my parents. My parents are old, and the days with them will be less and less. I missed the good times with my parents again and again. I am really unfilial.

Back to the point, the market of BTC has temporarily returned to normal after the decline, and there is no strong rebound in the market. My position is too heavy, and the failure of loss is simply unbearable for me now. My pressure is too great, and the fear is increasing, because I really can't afford it. If I lose this time, I will almost have no principal to turn around. In fact, the situation is not that bad. I hold mainstream BTC contracts. I have the opportunity to turn losses into profits within a day, but the pressure of not being able to lose almost makes me collapse.

Fear and fear are still meaningless, they will only affect my operations. I still need to integrate knowledge and action, and my actions must be steady and accurate. I now take three deep breaths and ask myself, if I am short now, will I buy coins? Yes, will I buy BTC contracts? Yes.

It's just that the position will not be too heavy. At the same time, when I buy BTC instead of other coins, it means that I have not found any good hot concepts and can only buy mainstream BTC. This at least shows that I have not found any hot coins in the market, or there are no hot spots in the market at present, or it shows that the grasp is not strong, the stability is insufficient, and it needs to be observed and waited for certainty.

Now I hold too much BTC contract positions, and the stability is not strong. My mentality is collapsing. Many people are saying that I have been charging money, but 99% of people don’t know how miserable I am. I am under a lot of pressure. Others can afford to lose money, but I can’t afford to lose my life. The sad thing is that 99% of people don’t care about my life or death. This is reality.

Fight, live as a hero and die as a ghost hero. The road of currency speculation is to fight for profits with Wall Street. This is also my own choice.