Because, in Leslie Cheung's value system, life itself is not the highest value.
Compared with cutting wrists, gas, and sleeping pills, jumping off a building is a decisive and irreversible method. My brother took sleeping pills to commit suicide in November 2002, but was found and rescued by Mr. Tang. It can be said that he was very determined to die, so he chose to jump off the building the second time.
In 2003, Leslie Cheung passed away. In his will, he said: "I have never done anything bad in my life, why did this happen?" His lover Tang Hede fainted three times from crying and took away 200 million yuan of his inheritance.
April 1, 2003, should have been an ordinary day, but it became a day of regret in the Hong Kong entertainment industry. On that day, Hong Kong actor Leslie Cheung jumped from the 24th floor of the Mandarin Oriental Hotel and ended his life. He was 46 years old at the time and at the peak of his career, but on such an ordinary day, he chose to commit suicide.
The sudden death of Leslie Cheung shocked the entire entertainment industry. Many artists reflected on it, why would a man with a career, wealth and love choose to commit suicide? After Leslie Cheung's death, his estate was sorted out to nearly 400 million yuan, which was quite rich for an actor. But these things could not save his life in the end.
The distribution of Leslie Cheung's estate was very special. His ex-girlfriend Mao Shunyun did not receive any inheritance, but his four brothers and sisters each received 20 million yuan. His two nieces each received 40 million yuan to help them go to school.
Leslie Cheung always regarded his nanny Akang as a relative, and left him 1 million yuan and a house worth 5 million yuan in his will to thank him for his care over the past 10 years. However, the largest inheritance fell into the hands of Leslie Cheung's lover Tong Hok Tak.
Tong Hok Tak was Leslie Cheung's confidant and lover. Leslie Cheung publicly stated that without Tong Hok Tak's support, he would not be where he is today. So in his will, he left half of his property, or 200 million yuan, to Tong Hok Tak.
When Leslie Cheung's body was sent to the crematorium, Tong Hok Tak was so grief-stricken that he even fainted. He received the most inheritance, but he also lost the most.
When Leslie Cheung died, he left a suicide note on his body, which read "Depression. I have never done anything bad in my life, why did this happen?" This became his last sigh in the world and also became an eternal mystery. Why would such a successful person choose to end his life at the peak of his career? No one can answer this question.
Zhang Guorong was born into a wealthy family in Shanghai. His father was a banker. He studied ballet and piano since childhood, and later studied in the UK before returning to Hong Kong to develop his acting career. With his outstanding acting skills and unique personality, Zhang Guorong quickly made his mark in the film and music industry.
The movies he starred in, Farewell My Concubine and Days of Being Wild, are still classics. But when his career reached its peak, Leslie Cheung's heart was not as shining as his appearance.
There are rumors that Leslie Cheung suffered from depression and relied on medication for a long time. The death of a family member and relationship problems may have aggravated his depression. Leslie Cheung has never publicly discussed his illness.
But in the year before his death, his friends could see that his condition was getting worse. Leslie Cheung chose to end the pain with death, but the sentence in his suicide note, "I have never done anything bad in my life, why is this happening?", became his inner helplessness and pain.
Perhaps success and wealth are not the sum of happiness after all. Leslie Cheung used his life to warn us that we all need to cherish everything we have now and seize every moment of our lives. We should not be tortured by the regrets of the past, nor should we worry about the unpredictable future.
Living in the present and loving life is the best reward for yourself. Everyone will have depression and pain, but we must believe that hope always exists. #张国荣 #BTC