You have tried very hard, but then you gave up. You are very reluctant to start over, you regret, you blame yourself...
Failure is nothing to be ashamed of; no one has succeeded without experiencing failure, but failing twice in the same place is truly blameworthy.
Start and persist with determination. In life, out of 100 people, only 5% succeed, and to be in that top 5%, you need to make a difference.
Effort goes hand in hand with action, continuous learning, and perseverance. Wishing you a successful new week!