I was so anxious that my phone and computer were all smashed up. When people said I was anxious, I seemed really angry. I was hiding behind the Internet and seemed to be seen through. This feeling was very uncomfortable. The word "angry" made me pretend to be strong and kind. All my forced smiles collapsed and I became a clown. I no longer wanted to pretend to be strong. I lost nothing because of my mentality. I could only wail in pain silently. #BOME