Here's a brief life story of the past two years, so you know you are doing great.
Homeless , living on the back of my girlfriend .
2000 euro surgery debt .
1000 euro social security debt .
4000 euro friends and family debt .
~ 2000 euro lost to futures on Binance .
~ 600 euro unpaid taxes.
~ 1000 euro lost to web development and advertisement of unsuccessful projects .
200 euro lost to casinos.
150 euro to get baptized , because of desperation .
Stomach pain after each meal.
No strength and permanent pain in the right hand.
Unemployed and unsuccessful at getting employed for whatever local job.