My mentality was a little broken after the liquidation. I only slept for two hours for three consecutive days, and I had diarrhea again after dinner. I know that this sudden bankruptcy shock disrupted my life and made me sleepless. I accidentally opened the app and found that the price was a few points lower than before the liquidation last night. If I could hold on, I would have earned several times now...
I often miss my life 10 years ago. At that time, I had nothing. My monthly salary was only 5,000 yuan, but I was full of beautiful imaginations about the future and felt that I could become a very good person.
That summer was full of beautiful memories. I had a lover who was detached from the world and not utilitarian around me. Everyone encouraged each other for their future. It's like an open world game has just opened a new map. Every day I tirelessly explore the surprises hidden in every corner. We shared a rental house in an old community with a friend. I remember the rent was only 2,000 yuan. Every day after work, I would buy her a delicious cake on the way home and enjoy the dinner she prepared carefully. I would ride my bike and take her everywhere through the streets and alleys, and I would be ecstatic if I came across a market with low prices.
Later, I neglected her because I was too busy with work, and she inexplicably became the mistress of the company leader. I was heartbroken. The last day I moved out of that city was a sunny noon. Before I left, I happened to meet her buying things in the pharmacy downstairs. I saw through the bag that it was a pregnancy test stick. Last night, she was with that man again.
Life is really wonderful. You and I have wasted decades of time, and no one can take more things away, but everyone will keep on playing with the wealth on the books. Today, I am more well-off in terms of material than I was back then. Through hard work, I have gradually found the job I want to do, but I can never find the happiness I had back then.
If I could live my life again, I hope time will always be frozen in the summer of that year. People live for a feeling, and we don’t actually need so much money.
