In 2018, I was still working as a receptionist at a software outsourcing company. With my vocational school diploma, I really felt lucky to find such a job. I also knew the HR probably hired me because he thought I looked okay.
What can I say? I'm just fair-skinned, developed okay, looks are actually average, but after makeup, I can cover up many disadvantages. So at that time, I was immersed in makeup skills; I felt the difference could be significant before and after makeup.
There were many programmers in the company, all university students, but back in 2018, I always felt they were quite lewd. It felt like after a month of joining, there were people adding me on WeChat every day, chatting with me about nothing in particular, bringing me fruits and snacks. I knew these guys just thought I was pretty and wanted to chat me up. I was alone in Shanghai and felt quite lonely, so sometimes I would chat with them.
There was a guy named Wang. He wasn't handsome at all, just a small programmer in the company, and he had been there for a long time without much progress. One day he told me he was going to resign. I asked him why, and he said he had money now.
At that time, we both wanted to make money. I asked him, aren't you from the countryside? Where did you get the money, from demolition? He said no, he was playing something called Bitcoin and had made a lot of money. He also said he wanted to treat me to dinner.
That weekend I happened to be free. He said he would pick me up. When I came out of my rented old community and saw him leaning against an Audi, I asked where he got the car. He said he just picked it up.
His driving skills were really poor; he took me to the Bund and took a long time to find a parking spot. Then we admired the scenery of the Bund together. He also let me choose a restaurant by the Bund for dinner. I said it was expensive there. He said it was fine; he was very wealthy. I asked him how much money he had. He said he couldn't tell me, but he would never run out of money in his life.
This Wang really left me speechless. I suggested we eat at the Peace Hotel, and he took me there. The funniest part was he pretended to order a bottle of red wine that cost 8,000, which was my monthly salary at that time. Wang's demeanor honestly shocked me. During dinner, he told me that the Bitcoin and Ethereum he had saved up in the past two years had multiplied several times this year, and he had also leveraged it, making tens of millions at once. I quietly listened to him brag, asking if I could buy a bit too. Then he taught me how to download the exchange platform and I deposited 10,000 to buy a few coins. He said it might have peaked already, but that's okay; holding it would eventually rise.
Later, we went to the cinema to watch a movie. During the movie, he acted strangely, wanting to touch my hand and putting his hand on my thigh. I asked what he was trying to do, and he awkwardly laughed and said nothing. At that time, men were still relatively innocent. Although I didn't like Wang, I didn't hate him either.
In the evening, in his Audi, he confessed to me that he wanted to date me and said he could support me. I wouldn't need to work anymore; I could help him have a child and just be a good wife and mother at home. To be honest, I wasn't prepared; I thought it was just a casual outing, but Wang actually wanted to marry me. At that time, I was a bit dazed.
Wang drove silently to a neighborhood. He said this was the house he bought in Xuhui and asked me to take a look. The house was really well-decorated, much nicer than my single room. He asked me if I was satisfied with the house, and if I was, I would be the mistress of that house.
This must be the magic of money. Wang, a programmer who was usually a bit shy, hugged me and kissed me, and I didn't resist; I slept with him. He was in poor health and finished in two minutes. What was absurd that day was that my period had just ended, and he probably thought I was a virgin. That night he held me tightly. I was actually a bit sad; to be honest, I had no feelings for this man, but I felt he was very lonely.
Ah, Shanghai is such a heartless city. Later, I quit my job and moved there. He transferred me 100,000. We considered it cohabitation, but he never mentioned marriage again. Those two months were actually quite relaxed, but he hoped I would cook for him, handle the laundry, and do some chores. I said I wouldn't do those. He also hoped I would improve my education, and I said I was too dumb to study. I felt Wang had high expectations for others but I had too low expectations for myself. In the past, I just wanted to be supported by a man, but I didn't like this man, though I could accept it.
An even more absurd thing happened. Two months later, Wang suddenly stopped coming back. When I looked for him, he said he was busy. In fact, at that time, he had bought a house elsewhere in Shanghai and met other women. In other words, he started to play around.
One night he suddenly came back and wanted to sleep with me. I wasn't ready, he was rude, and he didn't bring a condom. I thought for two minutes that I could endure it. Afterward, he said he wanted to go get a marriage certificate with me and asked me to prepare my ID and household registration, and then told me to get ready for pregnancy.
I looked at his phone and asked what those women were about. He said now that he has money, it's normal to play around. As for me, he wouldn't treat me poorly, and I was still the top priority among those women. I was speechless. It was at that time I realized the corrosive effect of money on men. I guessed he was originally the kind of man who would marry and live honestly, but now that he had money, he wanted more.
At that time, I actually thought he was right. The atmosphere was already wrong, and I even thought that if a rich man wanted me to be his mistress, deep down I would be willing.
Then that day he transferred me 200,000. I asked if he could transfer a bit more, and he said, 'Isn't this enough?' I said it was enough. Actually, our relationship had quickly collapsed. Ah, it's really shameful to say.
After he left that day, he went missing for half a year. One day, a colleague from my previous job found me and asked if I knew his whereabouts. I said I didn't. The colleague said Wang borrowed a lot of money from them. I later speculated based on the cryptocurrency trends from 2018, wondering if his cryptocurrency had dropped completely later and that he had even leveraged it.
One day, suddenly, people from the court came to seize the house. I realized Wang would not appear again. I found a single room in an old community. I checked the 10,000 worth of cryptocurrency Wang bought before, and it was only left with over 1,000. I vaguely knew what had happened, but it was all unclear.
It was very painful at that time; I felt deceived. My ex-boyfriend from vocational school came to Shanghai to find me. He was also a piece of garbage, really garbage. He said he came to Shanghai to look for a job and stayed with me temporarily. After he stayed, whatever was supposed to happen repeated itself. What was disgusting was that he always did it without protection. He didn't find a job after two months in Shanghai and left. I ended up getting pregnant.
I sent him a message, and he transferred me 300, telling me to get an abortion. I asked what could I do with that little money? When I sent him another message, he had already blocked me.
To be honest, I wanted to die at that time. I even thought about becoming a prostitute for a while, but I couldn't find a way to do it, so I had to give up.
After the abortion, I rested for more than two months. I had spent almost all my money. I was quite extravagant, buying clothes, bags, shoes, and so on. I had to start looking for a job again. It was also at that time I began to become more casual. In fact, as long as I slept with a man, many things could be easily resolved.
I consciously tried to use clothing and makeup to make myself more attractive. Later, I found a job as a receptionist, and sure enough, it was still the men in the company adding me on WeChat. Some things really just repeat themselves.
This time it was with a designer from an e-commerce company. To be honest, he was quite handsome. I was really happy when he added me. After about two weeks, we went to bed. He was very skilled and gentle. He was also a local from Shanghai. For a while, I thought it would be nice to marry this man.
But soon he dumped me again because his ex-girlfriend came back to find him.
Later, there was that disgusting HR. He asked me out for dinner, then booked a hotel, and moved me from the front desk to the office. This HR was truly disgusting. He was already married with children but still fooling around. He especially liked to use various props, making me wear a vibrating egg at work. After a while, our affair was leaked, and his wife came to the company to confront me.
I was particularly embarrassed that day, really. As a woman, I felt completely ruined. I was too casual. The HR's wife acted just like the woman caught cheating in a movie, like a mad lion, scolding me with the most unpleasant words. I really wanted to jump off the building and die.
Later, I changed jobs a few times and met several men, all of whom just wanted to play with me. By around 2020, I thought this couldn't go on; in two years, I'd be 30. I felt my body was as loose as my life. I had nothing but a flesh body.
In 2020, Bitcoin started to rise again. During these two years, I would occasionally check the coins I bought before; they were all stagnant. Then one day, I accidentally glanced at it and found that the 10,000 I invested had turned into 15,000, and Bitcoin had risen above 30,000.
I checked the news and saw that everyone was saying Bitcoin would reach 100,000 USD. That day, I made a decision to invest all my money into it. I only had more than 50,000, and after working for so many years, I still had no money.
At that time, I bought a lot of coins, basically a bit of everything. By the end of the year and the beginning of the next, it started to explode. I watched my balance in the exchange go from 100,000 to 200,000. Every day I woke up, the balance was continuously growing.
Then one day, it turned into a million. To be honest, that day felt like a dream. I decided to withdraw half of the money, and I really regretted not withdrawing it all. I called up Tony, whom I met while getting my hair done. He was actually a young guy but well-built. I asked him to accompany me to the mall to buy myself a special stage-style outfit, bought a pair of 3,000 high heels, and then went to a really nice restaurant for dinner. Of course, I didn't treat him poorly and bought him a suit. He asked me, 'Sister, you hit the jackpot, right?' I proudly told him yes. That night, he kept asking how I made my fortune. I finally told him I was being kept, and my dream had come true. He lewdly said, 'Sister, is the other party an old man? How will they satisfy you?' I said, 'That's not your concern.' He suggested we go have some fun that night. I chose to directly refuse him and went home alone, feeling particularly happy, thinking I was about to start my life anew.
After a while, the market started to decline. I held on, and the remaining 500,000 turned into over 100,000, and then it didn't continue to drop. The internet said a bear market was coming, so I withdrew my money.
I wanted to go back to my hometown. My parents were urging me. After I went back, my parents arranged a blind date for me, but those guys looked at me strangely. I always thought it was my short skirt or makeup that was the problem? Later, one day my mom asked me if I had an abortion. I then asked my old classmates and found out that my garbage ex-boyfriend had been spreading rumors that I was a woman he ruined.
Fucking ruined woman. I will never forget these five words in my life. I wanted to kill him. But I was indeed ruined by him. A woman loses her virginity, and it feels like losing everything.
In 2022, I turned 30 and became a leftover woman. I understood better how to please men. I just wanted to make money. I woke up too late; I had muddled through so many years, being treated like an object until I completely lost my purity.
Only by making money can I feel satisfied. At that time, the only way I could think of to make money was cryptocurrency.
I considered myself to have a poor ability to learn, but at that time, I had a strong drive to work hard for money. I learned about airdrop farming, playing with meme coins, and got to know various friends in different groups, learning a lot about blockchain knowledge.
At that time, a cryptocurrency group organized an offline event, and I went to participate. That was when I met a fat guy with the online name Dante. He also lived in Shanghai and often asked me out. To be honest, I knew what he was thinking; as long as it was beneficial for making money, I would do it.
At that time, Dante was basically free, having bought houses and cars by trading coins. We dated for about two or three months, and then we confirmed our relationship, during which he taught me a lot. There was a time when my contracts kept crashing, and he told me not to worry about money while being with him.
How can you believe a man's words? He said after getting married, he could tell me the private key of his account. We would manage it together. To be honest, at that time, I was still very moved. This man was indeed different.
Then we got our marriage certificate. I thought I would get married at thirty. This person, although a bit fat and ugly, wasn't much better when I wasn't wearing makeup.
I told him I didn't want kids, but Dante said it was fine as long as the two of us lived together. Then there was another wave of a bull market. Our relationship continued to be good.
To be honest, after all these years, I am particularly grateful that heaven gave me good looks. If I had small breasts or looked uglier, I probably wouldn't have had so many experiences and wouldn't have met Dante.
Dante said he liked my big white rabbit the most, along with my ears and eyes. Being his woman was actually quite nice.
In the blink of an eye, it's 2024. We are recently considering having a child, hoping for a healthy baby in the future.
