Meu nome é Zhang Yao, 36 anos. Eu era um engenheiro de TI comum com uma renda mensal de cerca de 10.000 yuans. Minha vida não tinha nada de notável até que o frenesi cambial de 2017 me mudou completamente. Naquele ano, como muitas pessoas comuns, fui atraído pelo “mito da riqueza” no meu círculo de amigos. Meu amigo Zhang Wei é um veterano no círculo monetário. Sua taxa de crescimento de riqueza me surpreendeu. Em poucos meses, seu investimento dobrou várias vezes.
Então, decidi iniciar minha jornada no círculo monetário. Naquela época, o preço do Bitcoin era de cerca de 20.000 yuans. Usei minhas economias economizadas por muitos anos para comprar 0,5 Bitcoin. Com o passar do tempo, o preço do Bitcoin continua a subir, assim como o entusiasmo do mercado. No final de 2017, o preço do Bitcoin atingiu quase 150.000 yuans. Naquele momento, meu coração se encheu de grande entusiasmo e expectativa, como se eu tivesse visto o amanhecer da liberdade financeira.
However, as prices soared, my greed also continued to grow. Zhang Wei told me that besides Bitcoin, there are many emerging altcoins to invest in. So, I began trading frequently, buying Ethereum, Ripple, Litecoin, and others. Every time I saw the prices rise, I couldn't help but feel joy, even starting to fantasize about being able to afford a bigger house and a better life.
However, the market is not always on the rise. At the beginning of 2018, the market began to reverse, and prices gradually fell. At first, I didn't take it seriously, thinking it was just a temporary fluctuation. However, as the market continued to decline, my investment account also kept shrinking. Bitcoin fell from 150,000 to 100,000, and even lower. My mood began to become anxious, as I stared at the market on my phone every day, fearing I would miss any chance of a rebound.
During this time, family pressure also came along. My wife, Xiaoli, discovered my investment behavior, and she began to worry about our financial situation. We have a five-year-old daughter, and education expenses and living costs need to be covered. Xiaoli talked to me several times, wanting me to cut my losses, but I always brushed her off with 'it will rebound soon'. I know in my heart that her concerns are valid, but I just can't face the possibility of my own failure.
In June 2018, my account balance was no longer enough to cover my previous investments. Ultimately, I decided to borrow money to increase my position, hoping to recover when the market warmed up. I borrowed 100,000 yuan from relatives, secretly praying that this operation would succeed. However, the market still did not give me a chance, instead continuing to decline, and in the end, I not only lost all my investments but also incurred debts.
I feel an immense sense of despair and regret. The confidence and self-assurance I once had were shattered at this moment. Faced with Xiaoli's questioning, I chose silence and concealed the fact that I borrowed money. Our relationship started to become tense, and arguments became frequent. Xiaoli lost trust in me, and I couldn't provide her with a reasonable explanation.
In 2019, I began to try to find part-time work to pay off my debts. During the day, I continued to work at the company, and at night, I took on some freelance projects. Life became extremely difficult, and I had almost no time to spend with my family. On my daughter's birthday, I didn't even have time to attend her celebration, and could only send her blessings through video. Every time I saw her expectant eyes, my heart felt like it was being cut.
However, despite the difficulties in life, I still couldn't completely cut off my ties with the cryptocurrency world. Whenever I saw a glimmer of recovery in the market, a flicker of hope would rise in my heart, wanting to try again. In 2020, I discovered the rise of DeFi (Decentralized Finance), and many claimed that profits could be made quickly in this field. One temptation after another made it impossible for me to extricate myself, and I reinvested some funds, trying to find an opportunity to turn things around in this new domain.
But the result was still disappointment. Months later, many projects collapsed due to lack of regulation and management, and I lost confidence again, along with more funds. Every time I saw the market rise, my heart was filled with regret, wondering why I didn't choose a safer investment approach, and why I always held onto a sense of luck.
I began to feel a deep sense of loneliness. Communication with my family decreased, Xiaoli's eyes were filled with disappointment, and I was powerless to change it all. Every night as I lay in bed, I would reflect on my choices, regret intertwined with self-blame, unable to extricate myself.
In 2021, as the market further developed, the prices of Bitcoin and Ethereum soared again, while I remained trapped in the shadows of the past. Although I knew I should let go and start my life anew, the inner struggle left me at a loss. Every time I saw my friends share their successes on social media, a wave of jealousy and unwillingness surged in my heart.
To this day, I am still working hard to repay my debts and return to a normal life. Although I have stopped trading, the memories of the cryptocurrency world still follow me like a shadow. Every time I see those flashing candlestick charts, my heart tightens, as if I am back in that moment full of hope and despair.
It is now 2025, and I am still wandering in the cryptocurrency world. Although I have experienced countless failures and pains, I cannot completely give up on this market. Every time I see others succeed against the odds, the greed and hope in my heart are rekindled. I know this path is full of thorns, but I still yearn for that glimmer of life.
Every night, when my daughter quietly falls asleep in my arms, I often reflect on my choices. I want to give her a better future, but at the same time, I am deeply attracted by the cryptocurrency world. I understand that this path may not be bright, but I still hope to find my own way out. In this world full of uncertainties, I can only keep moving forward, looking forward to the arrival of the next opportunity. I hope for a bull market.
[Note: The article comes from anonymous submissions, and certain modifications have been made to avoid disclosing personal information. I hope everyone can see themselves from others, and feel free to share your own stories in the comments section, or find me on my homepage]
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