During this period, my thoughts have been incredibly clear

But this clarity has come at the cost of two whole years

Last year, every time I practiced with four hundred oil

I exploded four times

The feeling after a liquidation is a cold sweat on my back

Despair because this path is a dead end

Every time I recharge, I feel like I am drinking poison.

This year I haven't exploded with five hundred oil and made six hundred oil

But I've also been feeling very repressed

Although I have established a risk control system

The overall trading logic remains vague

Until recently

I feel like crying a bit