Sometimes I fall into extreme pain, which is losing money in cryptocurrency trading.

Money is not the main issue, but it feels like my intelligence has been insulted, and I can't bear it.

I pride myself on being smart, good at various formulas, delving into principles, having high comprehension, and learning faster than others. But why did I stumble in the crypto space?

When I go to Macau to have fun, I don't mind losing some money because I'm there for entertainment; I can handle any outcome.

But the crypto space is something I meticulously researched—various investigations, data analyses, and forecasts—so why do I fail more as I study?

I lost money, which means someone must have earned it from me; for every buyer, there is a seller; trading is two-sided.

I'm wondering, is the person who made money off me necessarily smarter than me? Are they necessarily better than me? Could they just be some local nobody?

Did they use my money to buy a house, marry a wife, get a small electric car, buy a Rolex watch, and get a premium gym membership, becoming a refined man? They must be happy and joyful every day now, right?

Why do they get to take my money and become a refined man?

Every time I close my eyes, I can picture their ugly face. It really makes me angry.