Where is this?

Influenced by my family environment from a young age, I started to get in touch with the financial trading market. After turning 18, I had my first account, with my family supporting me with 10,000 to invest in stocks. Unsurprisingly, I lost it all in a little over a year. After that, I got involved with virtual currencies and contracts, and it has been around five years since then. Trading feels to me like a form of cultivation; if I’m too happy, I can’t do well, if I think too much, I can’t do well, if I’m too sad, I can’t do well, if I’m too excited, I can’t do well. Back and forth, it’s about having emotions that hinder doing well, without emotions there are opportunities to do well. But being without emotions is not human; not being human means no friends. After thinking it over, the only way to do better in what I need to do is to use the right emotions for the right tasks, and this is a watershed moment. Truly separating them is really hard; this might be the process of 'cultivation.'