How much rice did you explode?

Exploded again, the second time this month! Anyway, I am not worried at all because I have no profit, all principal, and I have debts, and online loans. Just smash it, if I lose everything, I will jump off a building, while you still have to work to pay off debts. Actually, sometimes when I calm down and think about it, I'm not completely out of options; I still have one way to die.