#非农就业人数高于预期

I sat in front of my laptop, staring at the account balance on the screen that turned to zero. This is not a black humor joke, this is my pride, all my hopes, everything I have, all collapsed into ruins at this moment.

I remember that it was 2017, and I used all my savings to enter the cryptocurrency market that seemed attractive at the time. I always thought I was a calm investor, but now it seems that I am just a crazy gambler, a stupid dreamer who blindly jumped into the dangerous ocean for greed and desire.

I invested all my savings, kept borrowing, and even embezzled my friends' money. I kept hypnotizing myself that as long as I survived this period, as long as I waited until this bubble burst, I would become the next billionaire.

However, the cruel reality is: I lost. I watched the numbers on the screen fall little by little, and my assets completely turned into air. Everything was zero, this was the darkest moment in my life, and I felt fear and despair that I had never experienced before.

I would doubt myself and begin to reflect on every decision I made, every rash decision that I thought was correct at the time. Every time I saw news about other people getting rich through Bitcoin, I fell deeper into my own pain and regret. I asked myself: Why did I make such a stupid decision? Why was I so blind and reckless?

All of this was because of my own pursuit of greed, desire for success, and overconfidence in my own abilities. I forgot that investing is always risky and the market is always volatile.

Beautiful dreams turned into nightmares. I fell from the clouds and hit the rocks. I was suffering in self-contempt and guilt. The huge debts paid, the friends lost, and the broken family will become shackles for the rest of my life.