When I first took on a perpetual contract, my master told me that I should take the loss. At that time, my boss said that I would not take the loss and would just take it. He did not persuade me and remained silent for a few seconds. He sighed and said, "It's human nature."
No matter how big or small that order is, it will be a bottomless abyss. When you make some decisions, you know that it will end with an email.
Every failure makes you wiser. At present, I plan my positions reasonably, focusing on spot and supplemented by contracts.
I hope you will never receive that email!