Quit the circle

$BTC I advise everyone not to play with contracts. My current mood is wanting to die. 1 million is gone, just like that, a full 1 million. My family is also ruined. I don't know how to explain to my wife and family. I've borrowed a lot of online loans. I want to die but don't have the courage. Goodbye, cryptocurrency world, goodbye. I can never forgive myself; after more than a decade of hard work, it's gone in half a month.