Are you afraid of facing death?

Entering the currency circle was both accidental and inevitable. Unexpectedly, this is the only place where I can talk because I have no acquaintances here.

I thought a lot while lying on the hospital bed today, but there was no fear, no reluctance, only worry.

When I was young, I thought I was the chosen one. Faced with the praise from my teachers and classmates, I always felt that I would do something great. Unexpectedly, I gradually became careless and couldn't keep up, so I didn't even go to college.

After entering the society, no matter what I do, I can do it better than others with my little cleverness at the beginning, but because of this, I can't do anything for a long time. After experiencing severe beatings from society, I realized that I was just an ordinary person, too ordinary to be ordinary.

But I didn't expect that now I would be the chosen one. I wanted to laugh but couldn't. I wanted to cry but I felt a little relieved from a bad family.

My only reluctance and worry is that I can no longer be a good father and husband. Sorry, really sorry. I have been mediocre for so long, but I have left you with nothing.