No matter how much the contract is, it's not enough to cover the losses. Please do not trade contracts anymore. Just buy mainstream spot and hold until April next year.

I lost 330,000 USD in cryptocurrency trading. I still have 180,000 in my account. I don't know what to do and I'm hiding it from my wife. Everyone, please help me think of a way to recover without engaging in contracts. Can I buy some spot now and break even in the next year? I also don't have any coins to recommend that can increase by about three times. I am ready to buy spot. I'm feeling like jumping off a building right now.