I don’t want to think about cryptocurrencies today. Let the ups and downs go with the wind.
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This morning, I went to visit my aunt with my parents. She has been suffering from pancreatic cancer for four years. She weighs less than 80 pounds and has lost all her hair due to chemotherapy. She spoke weakly, and her face was covered with a dark, dull aura. I felt that she didn't have much time left, and this might be the last time I saw her alive.
Life is unpredictable. The most frightening thing is to get seriously ill before you get old. In addition to bringing endless pain to your family, it is also an extraordinary torture to yourself. On the way back, I heard my mother sighing. Because my aunt was in so much pain, she could only rely on pethidine to relieve the pain in the later stage. Maybe she couldn't bear the pain so much that she secretly hid sleeping pills and prepared to commit suicide, but the accumulated amount was not enough, and she was discovered when she woke up.
How desperate is this? I was depressed for a long time after hearing this. I felt that the trivial things that bothered me were nothing compared to this tragedy.
My mother asked me to go to her house for dinner, but I didn't go. I went back to my own place and heated up some steamed buns and fried some meat and vegetables. Then I called Haiguang to ask him how many fish he had caught. He said the fish were not biting well today, and that the factory in the county had something to do, so he went back to collect his fishing rod. There were a few small fish in his tank at home, so he asked me to go get them.
Since the fish were not biting, I didn't go fishing. Instead, I took a walk on the mountain east of the village, did a few push-ups on the mountain, lay on the grass and looked up at the sky, thinking about the universe and death. I felt that people are busy all their lives and will eventually return to dust, and it seems that there is no real meaning in it.
After a while of random thoughts, I went home. The water tank was a little small and easily dirty. There was a fish with its belly turned upside down, so I had to build a pond in the yard to keep it there. What if I caught a lot of fish and couldn't release them? I didn't have a refrigerator either.
There are a lot of things to eat at home, but I don't know what to eat. I have eaten fish several times and I am a little tired of it. So I learned to make scallion pancakes again, and then mixed a radish and fried some cabbage to eat. Although I am too lazy to move, I still try my best to make myself eat something that is not so improvised, after all, health is important.
Today I went to see my aunt and bought a box of milk for 65 yuan, and some fruits and nutritional supplements for about 130 yuan, and radishes and cabbages for 3 yuan.
On the 22nd day, the remaining amount is: 9445.3-198=9247.3 yuan
